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2007-09-07T18:15:00.000+08:00

NEW BLOG HERE.

moving

2006-10-07T21:44:00.000+08:00

new site.

www.krizelle-ism.blogspot.com

Like, totally.

2006-09-09T11:14:00.000+08:00

Oh, yes. The humor. The sarcasm. The depression...

Stupid fever and body pains visited be at such a wrong time. Sickness struck me a day before the field trip, and I could hardly move a muscle because of it. And so, ladies and gentlemen, the result: absence at the day of the educational trip.

Omfg. WHY?! Maybe God didn't let me join for a reason. He knows that I'll only get worse if I join the trip. Riiight?! Hallelujah!

Yes, my fellow Blue Heights editors, I have seen the typo, and I am very embarrassed. Managing Editor pa man din haha. Anyway: All in all, the RETREAT was average. :-)

ATTENTION: I NEED A CHARACTER SKETCH. (150-180 WORDS, WRITTEN IN A BOND PAPER, FONT: TIMES NEW ROMAN) PLEASE SUBMIT IT ON SEPT 15-18. THANKS!!! :-)

Just now

2006-09-01T20:26:00.000+08:00

There are so many things happening within and around me. Some quite irritating and befuddling, some quite joyful.

Our class, IV- St. Cecilia, has won in the Sabayang Pagbigkas which was held last Wednesday. I have not expected it because we lacked time of practice. But thanks to the class' cooperation, and to Commander Opong's hard work, we managed to pull off a great act. I love my section. :-)

Hey! Guess what? I've already got a Globe Sim!!! :-) It came from a friend who wanted a palanca so badly. I love it. :-) Thanks!!! You know who you are. :-)

Our batch performed our original Centennial songs a while ago. Ours were great, but we, unfortunately, didn't win. Too bad. But anyway, IV-St. Irene deserved their victory. :-)

I'm composing our section's graduation song right now. I'm aiming our class to win here. I want our song to be published in the yearbook... Kahit di manalo sa iba, basta panalo kami rito, masaya na 'ko. :-)

RETREAT.

BUS. The bus bonded us!!! Haha. We ate a lot, talked a lot, and all... we hanged out at a gasoline station, went to Starbucks, and bought Chupa-chups in a matter of 20 minutes. Love it.

SESSIONS. Ugh. Can you say 'boring'? Our facilitator was mundane. He made our retreat a CLE class!!! I mean, a session is supposed to be meaningful, right? Well, all our class did was stare at our facilitator. Irritating.

DORMITORY C. Some of my classmates keep telling me that Dorm C (the room a quarter of us were staying in) is haunted (or atleast, it has the most ghosts). It so happened that the said dorm is where I will be staying. After our second session, Zusi and Joan went to our room and told us the blah stories which, naturally, freaked everyone out.

What happened, you ask? Let's just put at at this: there are 12 beds and 10 people. Only 5 beds were occupied.

Lights were turned off at 10 but most of us slept at about 11-11:30 PM. We woke up at 4:30 AM to take a bath, since wake time was at 5 AM.

PALANCAS. There wasn't time for palancas during the sessions, so I read them at the dorm. I was touched by the messages; I even cried!! Thank you, guys! :-)

FOOD. Man. We eat, like, 5 times a day. Breakfast, merienda, lunch, merienda, dinner... and the food was absolutely good! I loved it!

...All in all, the palanca was average. The sessions were boring, thanks to our facilitator. That's it.

Q&A

2006-08-13T10:11:00.000+08:00

Q: Kring, it's been a long time since you last posted. How was the UPCAT?

A: It was... (stares at the ceiling) a test... er...

Q: How did it go?

A: I found reading easy. English was average, but the time pressure was toooo much. I mean, HELLO? 85 questions in 50 minutes? So that is, like, 0.588 seconds per question!

Q: Nice math.

A: Don't even get me started on math. I hate math. I failed geometry on my junior year. I got a 74. And science? I only studied biology and earth science, since eveyone's telling me that it composes 50% of the questions. Little did I know that the other 50% was made up of CHEMISTRY and chemistry only! 8g4ehvwou9aqfja9hg...!

Q: Oh, man. So you must fail the test, don't you-

A: Shut up!

Q: Okay, okay. Fssh. How did this week go?

A: As boring as ever. I borrowed a book from the library. The title is Kappa and the author is Ryunosuke Akutagawa. I was curious because he wrote it shortly before he commited suicide.

Q: Wow, must be good, I guess.

A: Yup. It's actually like a children's story, but when you delve deep into it you'll understand that Akutagawa made it from his disgust with many things.

Q: Okay, okay. How about life with your classmates?

A: They're fine so far. I just hate the fact that we're divided. I mean, as early as now there's a sort of grouping in our class, and I don't like it.

Q: I heard your retreat's approaching...

A: Yeah. I need a palanca from everyone. Give it to me, people, on or before August 16.

Q: Can I give you one?

A: Sure. It has to have meaning and substance, alright? I require those.

Q: Whatever. Hey... aren't you supposed to be studying?

A: Psssht. Who cares? We're having our periodicals in English, Computer, and Advanced Algebra tomorrow. And I'm too lazy to care. But I might study later.

Q: What if you fail?

A: I won't fail, alright? Have faith in me.

Q: How's life after the "can't believe that I'm a fool again" scenario?

A: It's normal so far. I'm just hoping never to be abused again. I hate it. It's as if I'm a puppet.

Q: I do hope for the best.

A: Okay. I better go. As you said, I need to, EHEM, study.

Q: I have some more questions!

A: Next time, next time. I know I'm being celebrated, but a celebrity needs to-

Q: Actually, you could go now. Thanks anyway.

haven't studied yet.

2006-08-05T09:06:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's the UPCAT (University of the Philippines - College Admission Test) and I haven't studied. Not one bit.

UP's my dream school. Aside from having a low tuition fee (10K), a unit costs just about P12. Plus, they give excellent education, which is known world-wide.

I haven't checked/scanned my reviewer. I'm just too lazy to pick it up. Plus, I haven't taken a picture yet (for my Ateneo form and my editorial). Talk about irresponsible.

&*&*&

CLE time, thursday - Aside from being 5 minutes late in this class, our directress, Sr. Edna Quiambao, observed our performance. I was very nervous 'coz my group were to report about Buddhism, and I haven't even researched.

The report was... horrible. Tragic. My groupmates and I relied on our sophomore notes; and some of our classmates just won't go with the flow. They keep on asking about Buddhism, reincarnation, nirvana, even though they are aware of the fact that we weren't prepared. And, hello?! - Our directress was there! She only watched us squirm on our class' interrogations, as if we were on some debate.

After much dead air, Mrs. Tingson, our CLE teacher, allowed us to go back to our seat. I was SO pissed at myself, at my class, at the performance, that I cried. Goodness! I was irritated. Our section's image was not impressive at Sr. Edna's eyes, and I blamed myself for that. 'If I have only reseached' I said, 'things would've been different.'

&*&*&

You know what? I'm being linked with our Editor-in-Chief, who is also a girl!!! Oh man. I'm mortified! Why spread such gossip? I'm very protective of my image, and I don't want such talk to affect my reputation. I value myself a tad too much. Haha. (And besides, I'd rather be linked with Brandon Routh. Duh.)

&*&*&

Okay, let's dab a little sunshine on my post: I'm a yearbook staffer!!! Yehey! I'm so happy 'coz I'll be a part of history!:D Haha!

Guys, wish me luck tomorrow. I need to pass UP... gonna cram now.

Confessions

2006-07-29T18:36:00.000+08:00

Sorry, but this is another one of my negative posts. Please forgive me for the pessimism. (Oh man, this blog is becoming one of the top I'll-ruin-your-day journals.)

***

Damn.

I have been duped, fooled by someone whom I care for. She abused me again, and I have allowed it. Heck, I believed her. Why? Why am I so stupid? Why does she make me weak? Why in the damn stupid world can't I stop myself from being deceived by her?

NO, it isn't for a quixotic reason. I have pondered on it and have come up with a conclusion: I am enraged simply because this person has fooled me for so many times, (yep - not only once nor twice) and the worst part is, she gets away with it. She gets away without any telling-off from me. It happens all the time.

Why won't she leave me alone?! I'm sick of her fraudulence! She thinks I'm an asshole whom she can sweet talk anytime she wants! Damn.

I'm weak because I allow her to repeat her actions. I'm spineless for the fact that I don't tell her off, as I am fearful of its effects to our relationship. I'm timid because I'm afraid: afraid of what she might say, of what she might think, of how she will behave.

Damn. She's my weakness. I'm fed up.

Hooray!

2006-07-24T09:14:00.000+08:00

For the third time this school year: there are no classes!!!

I'm actually clueless as to what the reason is. Is it because of the typhoon, or President GMA's Sona? Either way, I'm happy I am given the day off!

Some people say that they get diabetes whenever there's the State of the Nation Address. 'Too sweet' as they point out. Oh well.

My brother and I are in good terms now. He's actually a sweet guy, very funny, caring, and all that. Whenever he gets in a foul mood, well... that's a real problem. Nevertheless, I love him. (I know it sounds sloppy, but it's true.)

Some of the things I need to do:

Finish my homework
Make (or revise) my editorial column
Study for the Filipino long test
Study for the English long test
Print some stuff

I hope I wouldn't be indolent this time. I'm trying to renew myself, haha.

Crying sessions

2006-07-23T10:21:00.000+08:00

I'm so hating the people here right now. Bull!!! Argh. Damn.

First, my brother. He can't understand his assignment, so what happens is he asks help from me. I read his book, and saw that the answers were there. When I asked him to take a look at his book, he has gone manic! (You kind of have to expect that, 'coz he doesn't like to do anything which involves reading. Heck, he flunked his Marist entrance test because of Reading Comprehension.)

I gave up. My brother avoided me, and he was saying irritating things whenever I was near him.

I was playing the PS2 when this sibling of mine entered the room and started ranting about how unfair I was. Then came my mum. She looked at me and said, "How could you teach your brother when you're playing the PS? Can't you see that blahblahblahblah?" I felt extremely cross, turned the damn thing off, and gave the answers to him. I was so wound up that I cried and stormed out of the room.

While I'm surfing the net, my mum told me, "What are you teaching your brother? You gave him the wrong answers! You said that blahblahblah, but that's incorrect! And you were playing the PS! Your brother is jealous when blahblah!" Bullshit.

Whatever. I might as well go to hell.

Jaded

2006-07-16T07:33:00.000+08:00

I was making my editorial last night, and to tell the truth, I found it complicated. Creating anything is hard if you don't have inspiration.

I was staring at mum's laptop three hours straight, and my mind was blank. I was typing whatever random silliness enters my mind, about Superman, the country, and all that stuff.

When I compare myself to what I was in the past, I can say that now, I'm lackluster. It's as if all passion has been sucked out of me. What's happened? It's affecting me in so many ways: I find writing difficult, my social life is at its low, I feel old, heck - blah.

All I want to happen is start a new life, because, apparently, school is my life. And since school has become a routine, it's safe to say that I've become world-weary.

You Are An INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

What's Your Personality Type?

Oh, man. Superman, help me!

Happy joy!

2006-07-14T14:44:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy!! I didn't go to school for three days straight!

School was cancelled yesterday and the day before because of a tropical rainstorm. I'm supposed to be present now, but because dad loves me so much, he decided to let us stay at home. Yipee!!

My classmates and I are going to have our grad picture taking tomorrow, and I'm a bit pissed 'coz - hello?! - graduation pictures this July?! Hell, the yearbook's going to be out on March/April! There's still much time left!

I've noticed that I'm being sluggish in everything that I do. Sluggish? Or maybe... jaded?

Hello, Kring? You're maturing WAY too fast.

***

I'm actually worried about my performance in ~~Mrs. Sierra's friggin' class~~ Math. Since I'm absent today, and there's a seatwork + quiz a while ago... you get the point. ZERO. Tragedy.

I foresee a mid-quarter appraisal. Auhmm...

l0ve.

2006-07-11T18:07:00.000+08:00

In love with a man.

Here I am, once more, with my bombastic fantasies. Can you say "pissed"?

I don't know why all men who meet my reqiurements are those who work in Hollywood. I mean, those whom I fall in love with are SO DARN PERFECT. What the hell's with me?! All this infatuation is making my life... complicated. Arrrgh?!

My family and I watched Superman last sunday and, as expected, I went head over heels for Superman - este - Brandon Routh. He has such a perfect face, he looks like a wax figure! And with every perfect man, comes an evil woman. Yeah, you've guessed it - he's taken. Swept away by some woman named Courtney Ford.

Duh?! Why won't he wait for me?? I mean, if he'll see me, he would know what'd make his being whole! Pambihira hindi kasi makapaghintay eh.

***

Happy feast day, St. Benedict.

lose control

2006-07-08T10:22:00.000+08:00

I think I'm maturing. Yeah, that's right. Maturing.

I've become less of a back biter now. I don't meddle that much anymore. I don't stick my nose on other people's business. I don't know if it's a good thing, 'coz I absolutely don't care about anything anymore. I've become quite reserved, which I'm starting to hate. (Well, not that it's a big deal.)

I'm starting to like the fact that I'm drowned with responsibilities. The school organ, projects, assignments, leadership, yadayada... I feel like attending to these than focusing on my, er, social life.

What the hell's happening with me?! I'm molding into a serious woman. Haha. But... I'm still in my zealous years. I need to have fun while I'm at this stage of my life, not grow up. Not yet.

Augh. I'M BECOMING AN ANTI-SOCIAL!God help me. (Sorry for the profanity.)

Whatev.

2006-07-01T09:35:00.000+08:00

I think my mind's being much of an ass again. Arrrrggghh!!!

I'm in this sort of daze. I'm confused. I can't say much - their isn't anything to talk about.

The only reason I'm in school is to learn and to be with friends. I don't want to be in mishap. To somebody: PLEASE STOP. I can't take more of your nonsense. You know who you are.

BTW, I'm the managing editor of Blue Heights. Joan's the President of OSF; Dian's the VP. Wonder what kind of governing they'll do. Haha. :D

***

Speaking of governing, I don't think some of my club mates consider me worthy of being the managing editor. Well... I hope they're not bashing me or something. Guys, you haven't even seen a quarter of what I can do. Stop judging, alright?

Holy. The grad picture-taking will be on July 15. DAMN. My hair's still short! Why won't the school wait for my hair to grow long first? Selfish girl. I'm even planning on becoming the prettiest girl on the yearbook!

Okay, for some stupid reason, I'm being conscious of what I'm writing. Well, just now. I got a little pissed. Oh well.

going craaazy.

2006-06-28T17:38:00.000+08:00

I don't think I'll be taking the Mensa test!! Bullsh*t.

There are so many... bizarre things happening right now. I prefer keeping them to myself - I'm SO not going public about it 'coz of the stupid things my mouth could say.

I think it'd be lovely for me to read a serious book, one like Pride and Prejudice. I hope I could borrow one from the library.

And speaking of books, I saw the Filipino novel I need to read for my Pnoi subject (Luha ng Buwaya by Amado V. Hernandez), and whoa. As in, whoa talaga. It's TOO THICK. And the Filipino words are too profound. I don't even understand the very first word from the novel! Uhaaa.

I went to the guidance office to unload my very heavy heart. (wow.) I actually cried! (double wow.) It only means that my prob isn't shallow.

Got to research!

Mensa!!

2006-06-26T18:08:00.000+08:00

Ooh gosh.

Mensa Organization is going to have a qualifying test - a qualifying test - this July 1. They're only going to accept those who score within the top 2%. Bull. I fcukin wish I pass.

It has always been my dream to be a member of Mensa. I mean - hello?! - Mensa? The organization for very smart people? Bull again.

Ragene Palma and I have been thinking of taking the test. It'll be held at July 1 (saturday), 9 AM to 3 PM. It doesn't have a strict time limit, you could go there at any time between 9 to 3, yadayada.

I sound kinda stupid right now. Meeeeensa. dammit.

Wish me luck. Much, much luck.

random thoughts

2006-06-24T21:24:00.000+08:00

Wala atang bilib tatay ko sakin.

Kanina, nung nag-uusap kami ni ma sa car, na-kwento niya yung reaction ni dad nung sinabi niyang magnu-nursing ako. Desidido na kasi ako eh. So, eto namang si dad, ayaw. Kesho mahina daw ako sa science and everything.

Gusto kasi niyang mag-fine arts (major in communication) ako or HRM. Naiintindihan ko naman kung bakit (dun kasi ako magaling), pero feeling ko hindi ko magugustuhan yung mga course na yun.

Sana maintindihan ni dad na kaya ko naman... sana, for once, maisip niyang kakayanin ko. Yun kasi ang problema. As of now, hirap ako (mag-concentrate) sa science. Boring kasi teachers. (Sila pa talaga sinisi.) Eh nakakaantok sila.

Sa bahay matutulog yung pinsan ko at asawa niya. Ang saya. Sana dito nalang sila. Kaso, naman - hanggang monday lang sila magsi-stay. Tapos by the end of July magmi-migrate na sila sa Tennessee. Hai!

Kahapon, 5 kaming excused from school, kasama kasi kami sa Comission of Student Leadership (CEAP), held at Villa Immaculada sa Intramuros. Kasama din namin si Ms. Dayag nun. Wala lang, pinag-usapan ang politics at Da Vinci Code. Andun din si Manuel L. Quezon III! May autograph and contact details kami. Ha-ha.

Masayang kasama sila Ms.Dayag. Nakilala ko si Lea Eleno (VP ng Student Council). Ang saya niyang kausap! Super. Pati sa Ragene nakakaaliw. Nalaman ko ang eccentricities niya. =) Si Ange, ever palatawa at nakakatawa. At, of course, si Bettina, maloko din.

Di ko akalain na nakakaaliw si Ms. Dayag. Masarap siyang kausap at open din siya.

Grabe. Ang gwapo talaga ni Lee Jun Ki. Magiging boyfriend ko to one of these days. Tingnan niyo lang.

depression attack

2006-06-18T08:42:00.000+08:00

I think I'm going through a phase. Hopefully, I'm only going through a phase.

I have noticed that I'm different everytime I'm in school, with my clique, with the same bunch of batch mates, compared to being in a different environment with people whom I do not know. Tuloy, hindi ko alam kung ano talaga ang personality ko - kung maingay ba ko o tahimik.

Whenever I'm at school, I'm SO ever the silent type, one who couldn't even speak, one who refuses to talk, for the plain reason na NASABI KO NA LAHAT NG GUSTO KONG SABIHIN. Being with the same people for the past 4 years makes that happen. Kumbaga lahat na-kwento ko na, wala na akong masabi. I don't know if it's just me, if all of this is normal or not. Being at the same environment for the past 4 years can actually grow tiring... no offense to some people, but it makes me sick. Nakakasawa. My passion has been extinguished. I'm... lackluster.

I think I may well have another reason for my behavior: the personality. Halos lahat ata ng tao sa St.Scho kasing-ugali ko. Those who are unique are celebrated - everybody wants to know them, to befriend them. The only problem is, lahat sila magkakabarkada. And the ordinary people inside the campus - me, for instance - go with our ordinary lives, ordinary routine, ordinary blah blah blah. Sickening.

KASI NAMAN, ALAM KO NA KUNG ANO'NG MANGYAYARI BUONG ARAW. I hang out with my clique in the morning, then lessons, then recess with my clique (wherein it's expected na either tahimik kaming lahat o nagpapatawa ang isa naming kabarkada), lessons, lunch time with my clique (just like recess: expected na lahat), lessons, dismissal spent with my clique (where we wait for everybody... and where everything is the way recess goes), service with some of my kabarkada, kung saan tahimik kami ng servis mates namin... there. A routine, done for 205 days, done in the last 4 years.

Hindi ba nakakasawa?

Hindi ba kayo mabu-bwisit na ganito nalang buhay niyo?

I need a new environment... I think.

Or maybe, it's okay for me to let go of everything. To start a new life.

I remember nung may review classes kami. I was the funniest and most active person on the class. Sobrang daldal ko - I was not the shy type, not even around boys. Lahat nalang kinukwento ko, lahat ng tao inaasar ko. I was in a new setting, and I was comfortable.

Tingnan niyo? Ibang- iba ako sa labas. I yearn to be in a different surrounding.

Being in the same environs with the same people and the same routine for the past 4 years... tell me, hindi ka ba magsasawa?

O baka naman ako lang ang may problema?

wasted part ii

2006-06-16T21:56:00.000+08:00

I Love You, Lee Jun Ki.

Pagod na pagod ako. Pumunta kami sa bahay ni Shan, cinelebrate namin ang birthday niya. Andaming pagkain - mango float, chicken, spaghetti, brownies...dami pa. Sobrang nakakabusog.

Bago nun, nanood din kami ng House Of Wax. Hindi nakakatakot - nakakadiri. Ang gross. Ngayon ko lang nalaman (actually dati pa, pero hindi ko inaadmit) na mahina ang tiyan ko. Muntikan na kong masuka.

Wala ako sa mood nun. Ewan, lagi naman akong wala sa mood eh. I feel sick, kanina pa to. May lagnat ata ko.

First day high

2006-06-09T17:49:00.000+08:00

Masaya naman sa Cecilia. Mukha namang matino ang mga tao.

Okay lang ang mga klase.

Teka, bored ako eh. Halata naman ata.

Grabe kanina yung nangyari sa club fair. D-Y-A-H-E!!! Hindi maganda performance naming mga clubmates. AMBORING PUTA!! Pero, hayaan na natin. Ibabaon ko na sa libot.

Blues ulit.

2006-06-01T21:21:00.000+08:00

COLLEGE REVIEW.TAPOS NA.

Ang lungkot ko ngayon!!! Wahahai. So sad talaga.

Tapos na ang college review ko. As in, officially tapos na. Sobrang nakakalungkot - pano kasi, ang dami ko ng close friends, sila ang mga taong sobrang nakakapagpasaya ng araw ko. Pramis! At ngayon, tapos na ang review - kumbaga katapusan na ng very source ng pagbo-bond namin. It's just sad to think na hindi na kami magsasama the way we did back nung review days pa. (Shet, ang drama ko, haha. Merde, merde!)

Anyway, ang mga nangyari ngayong huling araw ng review...

5:50 ako gumising, punta kasi kami (review) sa UP Diliman para mag-final test. Pagkagising na pagkagising ko palang, may tumawag na sakin: si Faye. Tinatanong kung anong oras dapat makarating ng center.

Apat yung supposedly pupunta sa bahay ko nung umaga: si Faye, AJ, Mica1, at Mica2. Akalain niyo ba namang ISA lang ang natuloy! Si Mica1! Ewan ko ba kung anong nangyari sa tatlong yun, hehe.

7:00 AM kami dapat umalis papuntang UP, pero na-delay ng 15 minutes. Super dami pa kasing wala! Jusko... tipong praning na praning na si Jen at lagi niyang tinatawagan sa Ms. Abbie kung aalis na ba o hinde. Pero anyway, dalawa yung van. Yung lime-greenna van eh puro girls plus Billy, and yung white naman puro boys plus Ika and Faye. Ang saya nga namin eh! Haha!

PAMATAY ang final test namin! Lalo na yung english! Putrages... alam mo bang 27 over 80 lang ako dun!(pano ba naman kasi... right minus 25% ng wrong.) Ang pinakamataas ko naman reading. Basta... ayoko nang alalahanin pa yung mga score ko.

Break time: Kasabay ko sila Mica1, Mica2, Jen, Ika, at Areej. Pumunta kami dun sa shopping center (mall sa loob ng school - san ka pa?), kumain kami sa karinderya na nagse-serve ng sizzling. Kami ni Areej at Ika nag-sizzling beef; the rest sizzling porkchop. Ang sarap kaya! Linagyan ng cream of mushroom yung sizzling. (Takam na kayo noh! Haha!)After nun, bumili iba samin ng Zagu. (Hazelnut Capuccino! Yum!)

Pabalik na kami sa venue ng final testing namin - sa UP Hotel - nung nakita namin ang mga ever-pasaway boys, sila Darwin, Lawrence, Marvin, at HOH. (Russ ata pangalan ni HOH... hindi ko alam eh.) pumunta sila sa liblib na lugar sa UP. Hmmm!!! Something's fishy! Since kami lang ni Mica1 ang matapang para tingnan kung anong ginagawa nila (joke lang, guys!), sinundan namin ang mga basagulero. Ayun, nakita nila kami at tinigil nila'ng ginagawa nila. Hayy.. ano kayang ritual ang nangyayari nun? It remains a mystery! (Theory: Nagyoyosi siguro sila. Yun lang naman.)

Oo nga pala... habang nagte-test kami, etong seat mate ko, si Faye, tinatanong kung ano yung sagot sa certain numbers. Ok lang naman sakin, hindi rin naman kasi ako sure sa mga sagot ko eh. TAPOS ALAM NIYO BA! Nung tapos na kami sa finals, sinabi ni Ms. Abbie, "By the way, I saw one of you cheating a while ago... ako na bahala sa grades ng taong yun.", tapos GRABE... ang mga repapipz ko nagsi-tinginan samin ni Faye! Aaaaagh!! So si Faye naman, "Hala Kring, sorry, hindi ko naman kasi alam na mahuhuli tayo!", sinasabi ko, "Hindi, okay lang," (sabay tingin sa sahig) . Praning na praning talaga 'ko sa grades ko 'coz bagsak na nga ko sa final test, bababaan pa score ko? Di ba? Where's the justice? (Joke.) Pero nung nasa CR ako, nalaman ko na ibang tao pala ang pinaparinggan ni Ms.Abbie nun... hehe. Buti nalang hindi kami nahuling nandadaya! Kaya no lesson learned! Hehehe!!

5:00 PM kami natapos. Uwian na. Eto na siguro ang isa sa mga pinaka- malulungkot na scenario sa sa buhay ko: ang malaman na hindi na magkakasama ang batch1/batch2 as a whole. Na-divide uli yung class sa dalawa, para hati sa mga van. May mga kasama kaming lalaki dapat eh, kaso GAGO talaga yung mga yun, ayaw mag-hiwalay! Parang mga mag-syota! Ewan ko ba sa mga yun, sayang talaga't hindi sila gumagawa ng effort makipag-bond. (Sila pa sinisi eh.)

Ang mga tao sa lime green van eh ako, ang dalawang Mica, si Jen, Areej, Carleen, Tin, Ms. Abbie, Boyps ni Ms. Abbie, Chobi, at si Billy. Nagsibabaan ang iba (Ms. Abbie, BF, Billy, Carleen, Tin) sa Sta. Lucia, so bale aanim nalang kami. Masaya nung kami nalang - sabihin nalng nating kami ang close friends and everything. Ang saya talaga. Nagpa-plano na kami ng kung kailan kami lalakad (June 10 - mark your calendars! Sayang di makakasama sa Jen!), kasi... para naman tight-knit parin kami. Grabe. Ang lungkot talaga! Huhu.

Sa review center: kami nalang ni Areej, Mica1, at Mica2 ang natira. Dun sa white na van - take note, 11 sila - dalawa nalang ang natira, si Ika at Noah. Yung iba NAGSIBABAAN SA STA.LU. Saya nila noh?

Speaking of Kuya Noah! (Nash totoo niyang pangalan... ewan... para sakin mas bagay ang name na Noah sa kanya eh.) Bukas, June o2, alis na siya. BABALIK NA SIYANG RIYADH! Waaah! Tae yan! Siya pa naman ang pinaka-matino sa boys! Asar talaga! Sayang. We need more people who are like him dito sa Pilipinas.

So, that concludes my buhay sa last dayng college review.

At para sa messages ko...

Mica1. Nasabi ko ba sayo na ikaw ang pinaka-close friend ko sa review? Pangako. Sobrang mami-miss talaga kita. Study group ah?! Happy birthday din! At SOBRANG GOOD LUCK sa love life! (Keep me updated!) Papara-papa... love ko to!

Mica2. Hoy babae! Hehe. Sobrang sorry kung lagi kitang inaasar. Ang sarap mo kasing asarin eh. Hehe! Ang CUTECUTE mo kasi! :D (Joke lang yun.) Good luck sa love triangle natin!! (Woohooo... DML!)

Jen. Hai. Ang babaeng may 24 na waist line. Pwede bang magpataba ka ng kahit onte? (Joke.:) 'Wag ka na kasi umatend dun sa kasal! Gusto kita makita uli! Punta ka sa bahay minsan ah!! I miss you!! (Oo nga pala, tungkol sa naging girlfriend ko... joke lang!! Hala, galit na yan! Haha!)

Areej. Nung last day lang kasi tayo naging close... hrrg! Asar! I want to know you more! Hay nako. Inggit ako sa babaeng to. (Wag mo na tanungin kung bakit! Hehehe.. :D) Ang ganda ng hair!

Chobi. Wasapwasap! Alala ko nung final test, sobrang taas ng balahibo mo eh umaabot na ata sa bubong. Hehe! Yung akin din kaya! Sana mas maging close pa tayo! Umatend ka sa celebration ni Mica1 ha! Para magkita uli tayo. :)

Tin. Ang kulit ng bruhang to... haha! Hoy! Akala ko ba makiki-kain ka sa bahay?! Ba't hanggang ngayon hindi ka pa pumupunta sa'min? Uy, wag mo kong kalimutan pag sikat ka na ah!

Carleen. Hey. Ahaha. Sana mas maging close pa tayo. Hindi tayo nakapag-bond! So sad! Next time ah?! Makakalipat ka pa bang St. Scho? o_O

Faye. Haaaaaaaayyyyy. Sobrang Haaaaayyy. Marami pang Sinigang dito sa bahay namin! Pumunta ka minsan ah! Cheat tayo uli! Haha, joke time! :D Miss na kita! *Pinch sa cheeks*

RJ este AJ. Hoy bruha... ano ng meron sa love lifemo? Ala na kong alam ah! Hihintayin ko ang araw na babalik ka sa aming pamamahay... (korni.) ang takaw mo pala noh! Ba't di ka mataba?!

Ika. Taga Dayspring ka pala! Hehe... di ko alam! School ko yun dati! :) Hey, hindi ka parin ba makapag-salita sa sobrang windang mo sa test? Haha! :)

Billy. Good luck kay... ano... alam mo na... ;)

Noah. Heeeey!!! Punyeta, mami-miss kita! Basahin mo sa eroplano sulat ko ah! Snail mail me! Wag mo kaming kalimutan. Super bait mo!! Promise! Mami-miss kita!

Jhileen. HOY! Ba't ka pa nagkasakit? Di tuloy ako updated! Kwento mo sakin yung nangyari sa E.K. ah! Good luck sa love life mo! Bonding tayo sa school! Whoo!

HOH. Hoy Bakla! Ano bang pangalan mo? 'Di ko alam eh! Ehe! Sa mga kalokohan mo, saludo ako sayo!

Darwin. Ang sobrang makulit mag-text. (Amoy yosi! Joke. :D) Ipagdadasal ko na magtagumpay ka sa love triangle ninyo nila... ano. DML!!!

Marvin. Pasaway! Sa totoo lang, mami-miss ko kakulitan mo! Good luck sa DLSU!

Lawrence. Isa pang hayup mag-text. Ang ganda ng hikaw mo! Mas babae ka pa sakin! Good luck sa love triangle! DML!!! Whoo!

ATsaIBA. Guys!!! Sorry di ko kayo na-mention. Hindi ko kasi alam name niyo. Face lang. :P Pero, honestly, I look forward to seeing you again! Kasi sobrang gusto ka kayo maging ka-close pa. Really. Text niyo ko ah!

Hay. Kapagod! Ayun. Sige. Lalo akongmade-depress pag mag-iisip pa 'ko. Hahahaiii.

iyak!

2006-05-29T16:16:00.000+08:00

Augh. Unbelievable. One week 'til classes.

ONE WEEK LEFT.

One measly week.

Anyway, this guy class mate of mine's creeping me off. He's so... scary. o_O I don't know why I said that, basta. The fact remains that he gives me goosebumps.

How will I act in front of my service mates next week? I feel like it's going to be pretty uncomfortable. (Long story to that.) Just wish me luck!

hangover

2006-05-28T13:51:00.000+08:00

THE SUITE LIFE OF KRING

Being in a suite at Discovery Suites is AMAZING. (First time haha.) It's as if you're at a house, not at a hotel. There's a kitchen, a living room, a BIG loo, and a bedroom - all spotless. Plus, the temperature's only 8 degrees Celsius. Coolness!!

The breakfast was heavenly! I could see angels while I'm eating, haha, corny. The food was real good. I overate, I think.

Anyway, I'm having some problems with my brother, Bryan. He can't stand being the butt of jokes, which makes him intolerable. He's always mad! Mad at ME! He keeps saying, "Ate, hindi na kita papatawarin!" and it seems like he's dead serious. It's too much. Also, when I sermon him, he keeps answering back. Very disrespectful of him, I must say. I can't take him anymore.

Bryan wasn't like this before. I adored him 'coz he was so funny; he was up for everything. None of that has changed - what makes him unbearable is his temper. He's driving me nuts.

Only one week to go before SCHOOL. Another ten months of homework, projects, terrorists, sob fests, pressure, deadlines, etc. I don't want summer to end. I just want to stay home and eat. *Breaks down.

B-A-N-A-N-A-S!

2006-05-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

Have you ever found yourself being disloyal to your lover - and this "lover" of yours doesn't even know you exist?

Well, I do. I'm being unfaithful to my "boyfriend" of 8 months, Gerard. I'm slowly, treacherously, falling for... (Drum rolls) Dermot Mulroney.

This guy is just SO handsome. What's his problem? Why is he perfect? Why does he come into my life, knowing that, in the end, he'll only break my heart? And, my goodness, he's 42 YEARS OLD - old and married (I am GOING to HUNT Catherine Keener.) , with a son named Clyde. (Okay, you see, I'm researching...) Why does he have to charm Hollywood, with his smile lines and all? Can't he see his attractiveness is DEADLY?

Sorry for exaggerating!!! I'm so smitten and heartbroken right now, haha. My dreams are so out of reach, so… FAR-FETCHED!!! Damn it! My mother doesn't even support me! ("You're reaching for the stars again!")

I HATE IT! All men who pass my requirements are: 1. From Hollywood, 2. Famous, 3. Taken, 4. Old, 5. Loved by everyone known to exist on Earth.

I think I'll just sulk in my room for about a week, eat a ton of Cornetto Drumstick (only P18!), and refuse to talk to anyone.

The only way to get over a heartbreak.

Look, Dermot's so creative AND generous, selling the lunchbox he made and giving the money to charity. Damn you, Perfect Man.

Depressing?

2006-05-20T08:53:00.000+08:00

So my section is St. Cecilia.

And my classmates are.. well, let's put it this way: they're WILD.

I've been researching on who my classmates are, and right now I'm at the point of a breakdown. Will I fit in? (I think so.) Whoa my goodness!!! They're too much for me to handle! I hope they'd make my Senior year a happy one.

I wouldn't want some people to "take over". According to my paranoid friend, Hamille, some of my classmates will make most people feel left out, etcetc.

Change the topic..

Yesterday, I went to Metro East to see my clique. I missed them a lot!!! We had sooo much fun. We played at Timezone, plus we karaoke-d. It was really great.

We also met Hamille's catch, Kevin. Let me tell you: he's hot. Well, not really. But he's hot.

I'm crushing on someone OLD right now, as in Stone-Age Old: DERMOT MULRONEY!!! He's so handsome!!! I'm watching "The Wedding Date" over and over!

Check this: His birthday is on October 31. Kewl.

I'll show you a pic some time.

2006-05-16T20:17:00.000+08:00

BULLSH*T!!!!

DA VINCI CODE IS R-18!!!!!

This is unacceptable!!!!

I'm mature enough to not believe in the content of the movie!! (Atleast I think I am.)

Daaaaaamn MTRCB!!!!!

Waaah!!! I have dreamt of seeing Da Vinci Code in the movies for the longest time!!!

And NOW it's R-18?!

RAAAAAAARRR!!

Boooring.

2006-05-13T08:33:00.000+08:00

I'm bored to death!! Instead of enjoying my freedom by playing the PS2, I get stuck with my brothers in darkness - literally.

Brownout.

I wonder why it's called brownout. It should be "blackout", 'coz the world doesn't go brown whenever the power shuts down. What's with the people who thought the color's brown?

My maternal Lola's going to stay with us for a vacation. I'm excited to see her and to taste her cooking. Siiiigh.

Tomorrow's mothers day, whaaaat am I going to get my mum?!

Ciaoness.

Sucks.

2006-05-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

This skin so sucks.

Guys, don't worry - I'm fine. I'm don't think about what has happened. All I know is that I'm innocent. Honestly, I don't care. Am I numb or something?

Maybe I cried it all out the day it happened.

MTV sucks! Why didn't MCR win?!? Plus, check this: Simon Webbe won the "Favorite Breakthrough Artist", but when we last checked the results, he was WAY behind. (OMG cheating!!!)

I took a leave from my review coz I was tired. Two of my buddies, Faye and AJ, went here. We had fun! Yeah. My brother, Bryan, had a riot session while they were here, which was pretty embarassing.

After two months, I finally have my period!!! Yes!!! I seriously thought I'm going to be sterile, so I pretty much welcome my period. I'm happy!!! Haha.

I want to go to U.P. Manila. Argh.

I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL. AND IS THAT HABAGAT?! *shivers from the storm*

Home alone.

2006-04-30T13:22:00.000+08:00

I'm home alone... sad.

I miss my family, they all left to go to Bataan. As for me, here I am, stuck at the house, waiting for inspiration to do something productive. I hate this - I'm left here 'coz I have a college review.

I hope I won't worry about them too much. I'm getting all paranoid. *Sighs*

And since I am bored to death...

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You tend to take more than give in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable.

Overall, your true self is creative and expressive.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

You Are Apple Green

You are almost super-humanly upbeat. You have a very positive energy that surrounds you.
And while you are happy go lucky, you're also charmingly assertive.
You get what you want, even if you have to persuade those against you to see things your way.
Reflective and thoughtful, you know yourself well - and you know that you want out of life.

What Color Green Are You?

You Are Apple Red

You're never one to take life too seriously, and because of it, you're a ton of fun.
And although you have a great sense of humor, you are never superficial.
Deep and caring, you do like to get to the core of people - to understand them well.
However, any probing you do is light hearted and fun, sometimes causing people to misjudge you.

What Color Red Are You?

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.

In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so.

Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Kring!

Kring has 118 ridges around the edge!
Over 2000 people have now climbed kring, with roughly ten percent dying on the way down.
Kring is the world's largest rodent!
Kring is the only bird that can swim but not fly.
Four-fifths of the surface of kring is covered in water.
Pound for pound, hamburgers cost more than kring.
Donald Duck's middle name is kring.
While sleeping, fifteen percent of men snore, and ten percent grind their kring.
Kring can live for up to a week without a head.
Kring was originally green, and actually contained cocaine.

So, let's see if these are right. ^___^

1. I don't even know what that means.

2. Well, I'm not sure if I resemble a mountain or something...

3. Hell, I sure am the sexiest, prettiest, and smartest rodent in the world!

4. I wish I could swim all the way to New Jersey and get my boyfriend, Gerard!

5. Do I look like a fish to you? Ooh... maybe I look like a mermaid. A beautiful mermaid!

6. Hey, I'm not that cheap!

7. Donald Kring Duck? Why didn't he ever say that his middle name's 'Kring'?

8. ...that's disturbing.

9. I might as well be with the headless katipunero who haunts our school.

10. That's... addictive! I think it's still has not worn off: many people are SO, like, addicted to me. Kidding! X)

We'll fly home

2006-04-29T15:23:00.000+08:00

Dad just got home from China and I'm very satisfied with his pasalubong. =)

He gave me a shirt, capri pants, and an MP4!! I'm so happy! It looks exactly like an iPod. And, take this: the memory is 4GB. Whoa. Im loving it. =)

He also gave me a rug (atleast I think it is) which resembles a fox!! It's scary.

Reality bites

2006-04-28T15:54:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to think that the world isn't as good as I have envisioned it.

Maybe things aren't the way I thought them to be. What I had in mind is a good life - a life without bad pressure, without vices, and with a bit of bullsh*t every now and then. I doubt I'll live that existence now. I could feel that the world I have lived turned its back on me, telling me that THIS is reality.

Peer pressure. Urges. Influences. Smoke.

The craving to get a fag.. it's just too much. I don't want to do it, but I sort of want to feel the sensation of getting lights.

Sorry, but I need to shut up on some details. I can't tell what triggered me to think these, but it's cool if you call me at home.

HELP!

2006-04-25T08:48:00.000+08:00

I'm in such panic because, once again, of my procrastinating.

I can't find a good review center!! I mean, Expert's good, that's actually where I want to do my thing this summer. The problem is, I want someone with me! I can't go there alone, I don't know how to commute. Plus, if I'm alone, my 'rents wouldn't even think of letting me enroll there. ("Too dangerous, you being alone.")

There's actually an MSA review here on my subdivision, but they started last week, and, whoa, there's too much catching up to do. Well. This is frustrating.

Please pray for me. I really need to find one NOW. UP and UST, my dream schools, are so only in my dreams right now.

Whadda

2006-04-23T18:41:00.000+08:00

I HATE IT!! MCR'S LOSING IN THE MTV ASIA AWARDS. grrr.

Hey! You know what? My braces are gonna be removed! Yehey!

Last April 18, Pop Inc (MTV) played my request, "Ghost of You"!!! I'm soooo happy! VJ Utt said I'm cute!! :D Haha. What the hell.

I'm crushin him because of that!

I'll miss you.

2006-04-15T07:48:00.000+08:00

PLEASE VISIT http://kevan.org/johari?name=kriing PLSS? ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS CLICK SOME STUFF.

READ THE POST BELOW IF YOUR SUFFERING FROM A LOSS. (HEHE.) YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE.

Bea's leaving tomorrow. She's migrating to New Jersey.

Bea, I'll miss you a lot. If only there were a way for you to stay here and GRADUATE first! Sigh. I'll miss you. Really really.

So many people are leaving, migrating to Canada or the States. I think I understand why: they're looking for a better future and a better home.

Bea, just tell me if there are any bullies at your school and I'll, uh, listen. Keep in touch ha?! I'm not sure if I'll always be available at Saturdays. Anyway, pasalubong din! :D

I'll missss you. A lot! Love ya. (Okay, drama...)

Back to reality

2006-04-13T16:26:00.000+08:00

I'm stressed from the activities we did in Bora. Island hopping, Banana boating, swimming, and LOTS of walking. But I enjoyed it very much.

There are so many foreigners in Bora, but Koreans caught my attention. They're very beautiful!!!I really, badly wanted to meet 'em, but I get intimidated. Errr.

I'm getting hooked with the MTV Asia Awards forum. There are many great people there. ^_^

So... it's back to reality for me.

Kada Siete: Sorry di ako nakasama sa lakad nyo. Feeling ko tuloy anlaki ng utang ko sa inyo. Sencia talaga.

Hola, Boracay!

2006-04-08T15:55:00.000+08:00

My family, relatives, and I will be having a road trip tonight. We're going to Boracay.

I'm excited but I feel like I don't deserve to be in Bora, physically speaking. I don't know why - maybe because I have been so accustomed to seeing "beautiful" bodies having fun on the white sands, and, well, I don't have that kind of skinny body.

I hope I could truly have fun and not be too conscious of my physical appearance.

Hope you're having a fab summer. (:

Please click HERE ,all you have to do is click some stuff. I got this from Dian. (Dian, hope you don't mind. :D)

so...

2006-04-06T13:07:00.000+08:00

I'm at mum's office and it's so cold. Like, negative 1 degree cold.

Mum's office mate and I:

Office mate: Wow, look at you! You're all grown up!
Me: (Smiles) Thank you.
Office mate: Are you in high school?
Me: Yes, ma'am.
Office mate: What, first year high school?
Me: Um...(feels insulted) incoming senior.
Office mate: Oh.

Do I look that much of a thirteen year old?!

=D

2006-04-03T07:17:00.000+08:00

Today's my Mama's birthday and we're going to celebrate it at MARIST!!

(Wait... huh? Marist? As in, the exclusive all-boys school?)

You see, Bryan, my brother, failed the entrance test the first time, so he's gonna take a retest today. Tsk. He only thing he actually failed on is Reading Comprehension, so while we were in Filinvest we FORCED him to read books.

He was so irritable at that time! Sobrang init talaga ng ulo niya. Super. He didn't want to read but since, as I said, we forced him to, he was in such a foul, disgusting mood. I wanted to punch him!

Sana makapasa na siya ngayon. (Makes sign of the cross)

Yesterday, Gerard and I celebrated our 7th month together!! Haha! It was nice =)

Oh, Gerard's birthday is on April 9!! Shet 29 years old na siya haha. I'm gonna be in Boracay with him! :D

Grrrr!Rar.

2006-03-29T12:27:00.000+08:00

This computer is taking, like, forever.

I'm at Filinvest AGAIN. Know why? 'Coz our brand new stupid stupid nag-iinarteng maid left us yesterday. She didn't even stay with us for 48 hours! Isang araw lang tinagal niya. ISANG ARAW!

I'm hating this. Mum had to bring us here 'coz we can't eat well if we're going to stay at the house. Ate Vangie isn't talented at the culinary side, mind you. Well, this makes me feel like I'm in welfare or something.

God, help us.

Okay, I might as well take a survey 'coz this slow computer bores me to tears. Pansin ko lang lagi ako nagsu-survey.

**~~* Top 10 ~~***
---10 Firsts---
First Best Friend:::	Joy, my cousin.
First Screenname:::	Sphinx. (Jologs days.)
First Pet Name:::	I don't remember, I was still a kid. :( I'd take "Cindy" as my first.
First Piercing:::	When I was an infant. Tongue pierce. Kidding.
First Crush:::	Sir Benjamin Tesoro!! Haha. Rich, handsome, chubby kid.
First CD:::	Spice Girls! Loved them.
First School:::	Tender Care. (Reminds me of powder.)
First House Location:::	Quezon City, near Capitol Medical Center.
First Kiss:::	Ssshh. Grade, uh, two?
First Car:::	Range Rover. (Okay, I'm fantasizing again..)
---9 Lasts---
Last Time You Smoked:::	No plans of smoking.
Last Food You Ate:::	Mango. Diet.
Last Car Ride:::	A while ago, on my trip to Filinvest.
Last Movie You Watched:::	Just Friends. "You don't deserve a penis!"
Last Phone Call:::	Cuenco.
Last CD You Listened To:::	My Chemical Romance, obviously.
Last Bubble Bath You Took:::	Oooh. Ages ago.
Last Song You Listened To:::	Astro Zombies by MCR.
Last Words You Said:::	"Antagal...punyeta..."
---8 Have-You-Evers---
Dated A Best Friend:::	Date? How about "bond"?
Been Arrested:::	Not yet.
Been On TV:::	How I wish! Anyway, malapit na.
Eaten Sushi:::	Of course.
Cheated On Your B/F or G/F:::	Haven't. I was as faithful as a dog.
Been On A Blind Date:::	I don't feel blind dates.
Been Out Of The Country:::	Sure. Hong Kong and US.
Been In Love:::	I think... yup.
---7 Things You Are Wearing---
1:::	Blue MCS school shorts
2:::	Blue Snoopy tee
3:::	Swiss watch
4:::	Red pony
5:::	Eye glasses
6:::	Cotton panties
7:::	A blank expression on my face.
---6 Things You've Done Today---
1:::	Ate pork
2:::	Complained of going to Filinvest
3:::	Played FFX2
4:::	Packed my things
5:::	Cursed under my breath
6:::	Watched Eddie Guerero (Viva La Raza! I miss you so much, dude.)
---5 Favorite Things (not in any order)---
1:::	Mum's laptop
2:::	PS2
3:::	My Chemical Romance CD
4:::	My Pilot Gtec C4/C3
5:::	My damned and destroyed MP3 player. Dammit.
---4 People You Most Trust---
1:::	Dian
2:::	Cuenx
3:::	Mum
4:::	Bryan, my brother.
---3 Things You Want To Do Before You Die---
1:::	Travel the world
2:::	Marry and have a happy, fulfilling life WITH GERARD.
3:::	Have my name on the Walk Of Fame. (Either on Libis or Hollywood)
---2 Choices---
Vanilla or Chocolate:::	Chocolate
Hugs or Kisses:::	Hugs. But it totally depends on the person.
--1 Person You Want To See Right Now---
1:::	Gerard, as in, face to face, eye to eye, lips to lips...(Oops!)
Take this survey Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

beauty befuddled

2006-03-27T10:36:00.000+08:00

I recieved a text message which, I think, is applicable to my emotional confusion. (BTW, thanks for the quote, Shan. :)

"Minsan tinitingnan mo lang ang gusto mong makita,
pinakikinggan mo lang ang gusto mo marinig,
ba't di mo subukan intindihin yung hindi mo maintindihan?
Baka sakaling malaman mo ang dapat mong maramdaman."

It isn't just romance in which I am befuddled. There are these feelings in me which are unknown of origin. Let's say for example, I'm staring unto the distance, thinking of absolutely nothing. Then, while I'm at this state, I'll suddenly have a sense of being bloated. It's not like I overate or anything. Rather, there's this horrible thought coming unto me, a monster which is ubiquitous in my everyday life, saying "Aren't you sick of yourself, huh? Aren't you hating where you are now? Aren't you disgusted with your existence?"

It's horrible, trying to shrug it off. It's persistent. It stays with me and makes me wallow in my revulsion. It's as if I have done something so distasteful that I'm better off dead.

I've been in a depressed mood lately. I've been glum ever since... ever since it has been shoved to my face that I'm not the best. That I don't satisfy one's emotive necessities. It's too personal. I didn't know that one person could make such an appalling difference in my life. It's heartbreaking. It's too disgusting. Honestly, it makes me retch. It makes me damn not only that someone, but myself as well. I have been too much of a fairy tale believer.

Guilt trip aside, let me tell you what it feels like to be confused. At first I thought it was "cool", experiencing perplexity. I, for so long a time, wanted to have this kind of emotion. Then it happened. And you know what? It's sordid. It's too powerful, too heavy for one like me to handle. It comprises of sleepless nights, crying sessions, suicidal "what-if" thoughts, and the urge to get a blade and, for once, suffer masochism. It's disheartening. It's as if you're alone, and that no one understands. I'm uncertain if this is just a part of teenage rebellion, but if it is, then I hope to grow up and be an adult.

I hope I'm not some sort of weirdo whose zest has been wiped out from the face of the earth. Hopefully, there are those who are on what I'm going through, too. I need reassurance that I'm not alone in this desolate earth.

There's my kada (got this from Dian :)

Luisa: Alriiight, pose!! 1-2-...
Ms. Abergos:Teka sama ako!! (biglang singit)
Luisa: ...-3!!
Milburga: Ay punyeta! Epal!

Joke lang Ms. Abergos :D

At last!

2006-03-26T14:43:00.000+08:00

After being bangag for such a long time, I have finally regained my sanity.

My blog is finally fixed!!God, I hated that Tober skin, it was too plain.

Anyway, another toxic-filled day it has been. I also have a raspy voice because of my coughs and colds.

I'm really missing someone, but I know that "someone" is numb and, well, too preoccupied to think of me.

Let them be. I hate this.

*GOOD FOR YOUR SITE [65 questions about everything] <3*
YOU:
name:	Kring
sex:	Female
age:	15
hair colour:	Dark brown
eye colour:	Black
height:	Damn..5'2!Don't you understand?
FAVOURITES:
movie:	The Exorcism of Emily Rose!
song:	As of now... Beep!
colour:	Red
band:	My Chemical Romance! They rock my socks.
cd:	Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge. (:
singer:	Hello? Gerard!!
rapper:	Uhm.. Mike Shinoda?
YOUR FRIENDS:
funniest:	Cuenx!
craziest:	Joan Delmonte. It has to be.
sweetest:	Probably Lyka.
best personality:	Lyka still.
prettiest:	No way, that's me! Haha. Anyway, Dian. (I'm betraying myself.)
hottest:	Myself. Without a doubt.
meanest:	I have to shut up.
bitchiest:	----.
best for advice:	Jenny. Whoo!
secretly hate:	I'll shut up.
MOVIES [favourite..]:
funny:	White Chicks
scary:	Exorcism of Emily Rose
romantic:	The Wedding Date...or Brokeback Mountain!
stupid:	Uhm... The Tale of Two Sisters or Ju-On.
RIGHT NOW:
what are you wearing:	An oversized shirt and a multicolored short.
what does your hair look like:	Messy.
what song are you listening to:	I just listened to Drex singing "My Happy Ending"
who are you talking to:	Nobody..er, myself.
are you screaming or swearing or spazzing on anyone?:	Not yet.
if so, who?:	I told you...
why?:	...
that's dumb:	Shut up.
oh well:	Talk to the hand, f*ck this.
LAST PERSON YOU..:
hugged:	Uhm... Roseanne?
swore at:	Jet. We just chatted. Miss you Jet!!!
text messaged:	Cuenco
phoned:	Cuenco
got phoned by:	Kyle, my brudda.
hit:	Ryan, I think...
got hit by:	Drex, maybe.
kissed:	I don't know!
got kissed by:	No idea.
WHAT IS YOUR:
e-mail:	kreungers@yahoo.com
phone number:	6566835
cell number:	09226884288
house address:	Brentwood St., Brookside Hills Subd., Cainta
^ hah just kidding.. im not a stalker ^:	If someone stalks me because of this stupid info...
MUSIC [your favourite..]:
sad song:	Demolition Lovers
happy song:	Helena :D
dance song:	Dance, Dance
just plain old song that you love:	Headfirst for Halos
love song:	So Sick
emo song:	Er... I Never Told You What I Do For A Living
broken heart song:	So Sick
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er..

2006-03-25T18:20:00.001+08:00

I miss Milburga.

I'm at my relatives house in Filivest QC; I feel like toxic 'coz I haven't done anything productive since yesterday. This is rarr.

I miss my friend but I know she doesn't miss me. I mean, um, it's a long story.

Last wednesay my clique and I watched "The Maid", but like every other horror story, it was corny. We didn't kind of appreciate it. Roseanne had some guests at the second floor. They were... er.

After that, we went to Nature's Camp. We swam and wall climbed. It was fun. Roseanne's napkin was seen through her shorts.

I wanna change this skin!!!Errrr.Help,anyone?I'll pay you cash. Hehe.

You Are a Bright Star Soul

Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention
In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you
You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial
And it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you acheive

You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy
You posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define
A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles.
Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally!

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

How Machiavellian Are You?

You Are 40% Open Minded

You aren't exactly open minded, but you have been known to occasionally change your mind.
You're tolerant enough to get along with others who are very different...
But you may be quietly judgmental of things or people you think are wrong.
You take your own values pretty seriously, and it would take a lot to change them.

How Open Minded Are You?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.
You are also giving and kind - a great friend.
You are easy going and trusting.
However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are 44% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.
Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

How Evil Are You?

er..

2006-03-25T18:20:00.000+08:00

Excited!!

2006-03-21T14:32:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's the last day of classes!!!Yahoo!!

Can't wait. :D
I'll have to study Noli Me Tangere chapters 50-63.

*The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly! - A Survey of Your Life*
* So Basically... *
Name?:	Kring
Age?:	15
Sex?:	Female
Birth Date?:	February 1
Hair Color?:	Dark brown
Eye Color?:	Black
Height?:	5'2..height after hard labor.
Weight?:	Um.. 105-110 pounds. I'm still pretty, anyway.
Body Type?:	Sexy? Haha. :D
Piercings?:	Got four on my ears. I want to have my belly pierced, but I'm broke.
Tattoos?:	None YET.
What are you wearing right now?:	A white tee and school shorts
Hair style at the moment?:	Down
* Favorites *
Soda?:	I don't drink soda. Anyway, Pepsi.
Food?:	Sinigang! Tonkatsu! Does chocolate count? :)
Drink?:	Water and Green Tea.
Alcoholic Drink?:	Gin Pomelo! Daikiri!! Margarita!!
Time of day?:	Whenever.
Season?:	Winter! Kidding. I like spring. :)
Day of the week?:	Friday and Saturday
Song at the moment?:	Pump It!
Band/Artist?:	My Chemical Romance!! Love them to bits. :)
Book?:	Harry Potter (the usual..)
Subject in school?:	Dismissal.
Place in the USA?:	New Jersey!! I'll come for Gerard!!
Place outside the USA?:	Philippines!:D Greece, too.
Color?:	Red and Orange
Style of clothes?:	Bohemian.. trendy, in general.
Store?:	People Are People!:D Love it!
Mall?:	Metroeast!Kidding!:D Galleria!168!Haha. :D
City?:	Vigan.I'm thinking Spanish.
Website?:	Blogger
Magazine?:	Japanese Magazines(if only I understand the articles...)!Seventeen!
Kind of pet?:	Puppies, kittens, sharks..name it.
* Worst *
Place to be?:	Anywhere near indecent people.
Class in school?:	Chemistry. Molality? Molarity? PV=nRt?
Time of dayr?:	12-3 PM, especially when it's summer time.
Season?:	Um... rainy season?
Kind of pet?:	House Lizards, Cockroaches, Rats... our wandering pets.
Drink?:	Red wine. A glass or two makes me too red.
Food?:	Liver. Hate the feel it has in my tongue.
Mall?:	168.Ever Gotesco Malls.
Store?:	Signature stores where you couldn't buy ANYTHING.
Style of clothes?:	Taong Grasa style.
Celebrity?:	HEART EVANGELISTA!!I HATE HER!!!
Color?:	I don't know...
Book?:	None in particular.
Type of music?:	Techno.Eeeeww.
Website?:	Any porn website that arouses me. (God, I'm kidding.)
Magazine?:	Pink?
* Daily Life *
When do you get up?:	5 AM most of the time. But that's about to change. :D (insert song: "First of Summer". Hate that song though.)
What is your first thought?:	What time is it?
What do you do first?:	Wash my face.
What's your usual outfit?:	My school uniform. But it'll be a bikini soon.
What's the first class of the day?:	I forgot.
When does school end?:	March 22, 2006.. BUKAS!!
Do you see your friends?:	Yeah, like, everyday.
What do you do when you get home?:	Strip ;)
What time do you go to bed?:	9:30.
* Do you...*:	Do I what?
Brush your teeth daily?:	Of course!
Brush your hair daily?:	Yeah.
Shower daily?:	With such hot weather, you think I wouldn't shower daily?
Sing?:	Sure.
Dance?:	Er...
Party?:	Hell no.
Get drunk?:	Unfortunately, no. :(
Have sex?:	In your dreams.
Read books?:	Sometimes. It's difficult to find a good book nowadays.
Listening to music a lot?:	Yup.
Read magazines?:	Yup.
Go online a lot?:	Yup.
Stay on AIM all day even with an away message?:	Don't AIM.
Have a religion?:	Sure.
Have an IPod?:	Shut up.
Want an IPod?:	Truly, madly, badly do.
Have a Girlfriend/Boyfriend?:	Yeah. Have lots of girl pals. (Corny!!)
Play an instrument?:	Sure. Tambourine, Maracas, Triangle, Bongos...
Get sick a lot?:	Lately do.
Watch TV?:	I'm actually watching MTV Diyes right now.
Like MTV?:	I'm actually watching MTV Diyes right now. I LOVE Pop Inc! Go Denise!
Like VH1?:	Not really.
Like the History Channel?:	Don't have cable.
Have Digital Cable?:	I just told you!
Have more than 500 channels on your TV?:	We.Don't.Have.Cable.
Listen to the radio?:	A lot.
Still use your CD player?:	Yup.
Stalk people?:	Ehehe...
Have more than 200 buddies on your Buddy List?:	I'm working on it.
Have dial-up internet?:	Sure do.
Have AOL?:	No.
Know HTML?:	A tiny bit.
Have a GPA higher than 3.9?:	Er... With what being the highest?
Get H's in honors classes?:	Want this? *raises knuckles
* Music *
Do you listen to Rap?:	On MTV, yeah. But it's only Fort Minor that I like.
R & B?:	Sure do.
Blues and/or Jazz?:	Nope.
Classical?:	If watching "Phantom of the Opera" counts, then I do.
Pop?:	Everyday.
Country?:	No. Yawdeleihihoo.
Emo/Scremo?:	MCR!!!!
Heavy Metal?:	No way!
Christian?:	Yup, at school. At church, too.
Techno?:	I'm forced to.
Reggae?:	No,no,no...
Broadway Musical songs?:	Not yet.
Oldies?:	Every sunday, at the car.
* In A Boyfriend/Girlfriend *
Hair color?:	Natural red.:D Light brown, black... whatever.
Eye color?:	Green, Goldish Brown. (Oh, Gerard...)
Tattoos?:	With my name on it? No prob.
Piercings?:	As much as possible, none.
Favorite Music?:	Emo/Screamo, Pop/Punk Rock. Don't he EVER listen to Techno!
Style of clothing?:	Whatever as long as he/she doesn't look embarrassing.
Body Type?:	Sexy!:D
Personality or Looks?:	Both, please.
Would you go out with someone just for their money?:	Yeah, but just for a while.
Do you go on "Pity Dates"?:	No. Let them suffer.
Does size matter?:	A bit...yeah.
Do they have to be popular?:	No. As long as he/she looks good.
Does the guy ask the girl or the other way around?:	The guy asks the girl. I'm so ancient.
Where do you go on the first date?:	Somewhere fun.
Kiss on the first date?:	Depends.
Sex on the first date?:	This survey is so rude, it's cute.
* Right Now *
Do you think you look good right now?:	Yeah. I look good everyday.
Are you eating something?:	No.
Are you drinking something?:	No.
Are you IMing anyone?:	No.
Are you talking on the phone with someone?:	Think I can when I'm online?
Are you talking face to face with someone?:	With my imaginary friend, yeah.
Is anyone at your house who doesn't live there?:	Our maids.
What song are you listening to?:	Just listened to the unintelligible song of Up Dharma Down.
What are you watching on TV?:	MTV Diyes.
What other websites do you have open?:	Blogskins.com.
Why are you taking this survey?:	For fun, but I didn't realize that it's long.
Where are you going to post it?:	iluvkring.blogspot.com
What are you going to do after this?:	Study.
* What do you Believe? *
Do you believe in ghosts?:	I think I do. @_@
The afterlife?:	Yup.
Aliens?:	Er... I keep it neutral.
God?:	Of course!
The devil?:	After watching "The Exorcism of Emily Rose", yes.
Heaven?:	Yes, I do!
Hell?:	Not really, I mean, God wouldn't punish us in such a way.
Scientology?:	What's that?
Hinduism?:	I think so.
Buddhism?:	I do.
Christianity?:	I do.
Taoism?:	Er... if their belief would help me attain happiness, then yeah.
Judism?:	I don't even know Judism.
Jesus?:	Yeah.
Nothing?:	Neutral.
Reincarnation?:	I once strongly believed in reincarnation... I hope so.
Yourself?:	Yeah!AJA,Kring!
* Randoms *
Have you been on an airplane before?:	Sure.
Where were you going?:	Hong Kong, US, Cagayan de Oro.
Have you been to another country?:	What do you think?
Have you ever went to another country with your friends?:	Not yet :(
Have you ever partied in another country?:	Yup, an Easter Party. Hehehe.
Have you ever went on a roadtrip with your friends?:	Roadtrip? Going to Star City? Yeah.
Ever stayed online more than 10 hours straight?:	No, not yet.
Pretended to like someone just to get popular?:	Yeah :D
Talked about someone behind their back?:	Like, everyday. Let's face it, it's hard being purely nice.
Had someone talk about you behind your back?:	Sure.
Been in a fight online?:	OH YES!
Been in a fight face to face?:	OH YES!It was horrible.
Gotten yourself involved in a fight that wasn't about you?:	I think so...
Been called a bitch?:	Yeah. Jhileen calls me a "bitch", I call her a "slut". For fun. :)
Been called a slut/whore?:	No.
Been to Australia?:	Not yet.
Do you like snakes?:	Not really.
Ever cried to get your own way?:	Yeah!!:D It was nice. :)
Ever broken a bone?:	Nope.
Ever had to stay in the hospital for more than a week?:	Nope.
Ever had serious surgery?:	Nope. Hopefully never.
Ever looked a porn online?:	Erm..
Ever went to one of those "adult" stores?:	Not yet..
Ever bought clothes at Walmart?:	No.
Ever gotten clothes from the Salvation Army?:	I don't think we have "Salvation Army" here.
Ever paid more than 100 dollars for a pair of jeans?:	I never will. I'm too kuripot.
Ever been on stage for any reason?:	Sure. To sing.
Ever been in a play?:	Yup.
Ever been in a choir?:	Yup. Grade school days.
Ever been in a band?:	I wish I did.
Do you play, or used to play, an instrument?:	Yep.
Gotten a Brazilian Bikini Wax?:	Ouch.
Waxed your eyebrows?:	Never waxed.
Waxed your legs?:	Never waxed.
Cut yourself shaving?:	Never shaved.
Have you ever died?:	Wish I did. Then I'd be bought back to life. That's hot. :D
Was this survey an good at all?:	A bit.
What time is it right now?:	4:24 PM.
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ARGH!!

2006-03-19T14:26:00.000+08:00

Okay,lagpas-lagpas tong post na toh.I dun care.

Really Frustrated.
I'm under EXTREME pressure yet I have the nerve to surf the net.
I'm gonna join the Palanca Awards. "Why do you want to stay in the Philippines?"
I have enough drive and reason to answer that quessie.

Argh I want to have the Tsubasa skin but it's so hard to edit!! *Iyak.

Good luck to me.

+imissyou+

I like Fruits Basket.Lol.

I kinda like Kyo better. Or Yuki!!Or..or..Heero (of Fruits Basket)!^_^

Hatsuharu again? Omigod we're destined to be together!!

I think that's true. I thought the answer's going to be Hatsuharu.

Ass hole,huh?

Wihoo.

2006-03-18T19:46:00.000+08:00

I'm really studying hard at trigonometry 'coz we'll have our periodical test at Monday. And guess what? Kasabay pa ng trigo ang chemistry. God. Is the administration punishing us or something?

I've submitted my application letter to Ms. Japlos (na mahilig mang-haplos ng estudyante. Joke lang. Baka mabasa pa niya toh.), running for Managing Editor. I'll keep my fingers crossed!

The saying "you don't know what you have 'till it's gone" is SO true. I always thought that I don't fit in III-St.Milburga, that is, until this week. I realized that I'm where I've always wanted to be. I'll truly miss my class mates. I lurve them lots.

Milburga habambuhay.

Mahal na mahal ko kayo.

Under Pressure

2006-03-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

I made my english portfolio, chem portfolio, SS editorial cartoon, SS news folder, and Powerpoint Presentation of "Noli Me Tangere" in just one day!!

Whew!Pressure sure brings out the best in me!

2006-03-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

I miss you... :'(

Oh fuck.

2006-03-10T19:00:00.000+08:00

What's wrong with me? I'm emotionally confused. Always.

Sometimes I feel lonely, sometimes sick, sometimes depressed; I don't even know why I'm feeling that way. Example: two nights ago, before sleeping, I wanted to cry so badly. But I don't even have a reason to be that sad. I don't have an excuse.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm not like this. This is not normal. Is this part of some sort of teenage hormonal blablabla..

Sorry for the post. I'm dazed. REALLY dazed.

...

2006-03-04T21:01:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was fun. I loved it.

Happy bday uli Che. Sobrang saya talaga. Sorry if we were a bit demanding. (esp. the Libis chorva.)

AAH NAKAKAINIS BA'T AMBABA NG VOTES NG MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE SA PHILIPPINES!!!

EVERYBODY! PLEASE, PLEASE VOTE FOR MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IN THE MTV ASIA AWARDS!!! CLICK HERE.

Yeah!!

2006-03-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's Chessika's birthday and we're going to celebrate it at Star City!!! I'm excited!

God. God. God. What should I wear? Shorts or pants? I like to wear shorts more, 'coz I feel sexy. LOL. But won't my thighs get noticed?? Argh.

If you're wondering how we'll get there, Kuya Notnot, our school bus driver, will take us there and bring us home. Che paid 1.3K for his services. Duh.

Happy birthday Kuya Ken!!!Thanks for the treat!I love Jollibee!!:D

Ciao :D

Ordinary day

2006-02-28T21:05:00.000+08:00

Last friday, my family and I spent the night at New Hyatt Hotel. It was great.

The following morning, mum and I had the most superb breakfast I have had for years: the food was really great. Mango, watermelon, sweet bread with mango, bread with marmalade, crunchy bacon, and hash browns. My drinks were hot choco, soya milk (which, in my opinion, tasted bad), and non-fat milk.

Afterwards, I accompanied Kyle and Bryan in the pool. There was this foreigners who caught my attention. They look hot.

Lunch time, we ate at a Chinese resto, then went to Bataan.

Haha. Sharing.

DID YOU KNOW THAT I KEPT POSING NUDE AT THE COMFORT ROOM ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT I WAS DOING IT AT A 2-WAY MIRROR?!OMIGODLINESS. Maybe you'll see a new porn video called "One Night In Hyatt" or something like that.

Ciaoee.

Quick post!

2006-02-23T18:14:00.000+08:00

Alrighty, I'm in a hurry (only 30 mins of internet access granted by my luverly mother!Huhu.), so I'll make this one as informative as possible.

Lyka, Shan, and I are going to a party ("soiree", as they call it) tomorrow!! The sections of St. Milburga and St. John are going to mingle and everything. I don't know if I should be excited, scared or what. I mean, Dian and I have this traumatic experience with Maristians, particularly with someone we prefer to call "Vampire".

Speaking of "Vampire", we (Lyka, kada, and I) saw him a while ago at S'mall! Whoa. He really looks like a vampire. His sophomore cousin, a Scholastican, looks like a "Kapre". Family of Aswangs, I know.

I'm really happy with how my acting in English turned out. I'm Madame Ludmilla, a strict, pure, germless nun who locks students in a closet. Socorro, "I", Madame Ludmilla, and the mother of "I" are in a talk show (with hosts Mish and Escy) and are interviewed. I think I did a great job! Yahoo!

Sorry for the typo's!! I'm so in a hurry that I can't even put a picture of a Kapre or a Vampire!

Ciao!

My teeth hurt!!

2006-02-19T09:13:00.000+08:00

I went to Dr.Urbi (my dentist) yesterday. One of his assistants took care of me. This VERY THICK wire was put in my lower teeth, and I tell you, it hurts!!

I have to religiously put elastics on my teeth 24/7 so that they could remove my braces next month.

This sucks. It hurts.

To Dian and Cuenco, I have a song for both of you!

Stand up fucking tall, don't let them see your back

And take my fucking hand

And never be afraid again!

I love that song! ( Our Lady of Sorrows) Haha!

ooh!!

2006-02-18T17:10:00.000+08:00

Another long post, I guess. Anyway, this is my journal. I'll try to keep readers entertained.

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Sunday, February 5, 2006

Have you ever been caught crushing on your crush BY YOUR CRUSH?! It's the most stupid stupid humiliating thing that has happened to me!! (Aside from being slapped crossly on the face in the midst of our dramatic play, which was SO not included in the script.)

To those whom I haven't told about this yet (which is, maybe, only a quarter of our school's student body) ,let me again narrate the cuento:

I was in the car, going to Filinvest, when my crush (whom we will call Kapor) texted me. I got all tingly inside; my first impulse was to text a friend of mine, Ceejai. She knows I'm going nuts over Kapor, so I sent her a text message which says, "cj!ktxt q c ***!kiliiiiig!!(: haha!" I waited for Ceejai's reply. Minutes flew. Nothing. It was then that something dawned upon me, you
know what. So, with much suspense, I looked at the Sent Items folder.

I sent the text message to Kapor!!

'This CAN'T be happening,' I nervously told myself, 'It's my first time to text Kapor and I'm leaked!! Oh, what a GREAT way to give a first impression.'

Heart painful and face flushed, I texted Kapor. It went this way:

Me: 'cj!ktxt q c ***!kiliiiiig!(: haha! <-- shoot ***!ntnggap mu yan?(:'Kapor: '(:'Me:'anqt mu xe eh!kea nkka klig!(: [oh wag lmke ulo!]'
And to make things much, much worse, I recieved this reply:

'Hi!(: ksma nmin c *** ngaun, kwawa nga eh, inaantok! Anu name mu?(: Hi!kkda q c ***, anu section mu?(: grbe nkktawa c ***! Hi, classmate ako ni ***, anu club mo?(: ansaia kasama ni ***!"

It only meant one thing: Kapor wasn't alone. And it wasn't only her that read my messages.

EMBARRASSING!!!

I don't want to give the full details of what happened after that, I'll summarize: I called two of my buddies, face undeniably flushed, and told them everything. I wanted to cry out of humiliation. I texted buddies and told them, too.

Augh, I could die. Why didn't I die? Should've roasted myself alive.

Feeling: Sick;mortified.

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Monday, February 6, 2006

No classes!!

Wished it was the end of the month so as not to see the Seniors, including Kapor, ever again.

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Tuesday, February 7, 2006

Seriously thought of not going outside the class room (during break time) so that Kapor and her friends would NOT see me.

Went down on lunch time, and my clique kept shouting her name in all four directions. And to think that the Seniors' eating area was just right in front of ours. Sigh.

Half the class knew of my story.

Why am I making such a big deal out of this?!

***

Wednesday, February 8, 2006

Morning, Dian told me that Kapor will treat her to food since she got the right guess of whom Kapor romantically loved.

Seriously thought of hiding in the class room for the whole day.

I did hide in the class room for the whole day.

***

Thursday, February 9, 2006

Half-day classes. Mass and then a dance fest.

At the mass, when we were to be given the Bread, Kapor was right next to me! God! I turned away and stared at my batch mates. It was TOO MUCH!

The dance fest was great - I didn't see Kapor! Wooh! Oh yeah, the dance club was marvelous! Think I can join next school year, hm?

Dismissal, Joan, Dian, Che, Shan, and I went to Tapsi Ni Vivian to have some lunch. We ate Tapsilog (TAPa, SInigang, itLOG), and thank goodness we had a 10% discount.

The meal made me so full that my stomach was as hard as my forehead! I couldn't move well and I always had the feeling of burping.

We were about to close the elevator when we saw Hamille. She went along with us and we hung out at KFC.

We watched "I Will Always Love You" (starring Angel Locsin and Richard Gutierrez) and to tell you the truth, I didn't like it. It wasn't consistent. I mean, in the story, Angel's a poor girl with some heart disease, but she keeps running and running with Richard. I don't get it. Wasn't she suppose to die?

Anyway, after that, we saw Jenny and Jane, and they went with us. We went to Time Zone and I spotted Pate and Aleesah. They were both drunk, but Aleesah looked as if she were insane. I bet she didn't even know that she was talking to me.

At KFC, I ate some Tiramisu-flavored ice cream and hung with Jenny, Jane, Shan, and Iron (Shan's text mate). I was in a snobbish mood so I didn't want to talk with Iron, whom I did not know. I was bored out of my wits and THANK GOODNESS I saw Aleesah, Pate, and Cate. We chatted and I had fun.

At 6 PM, we went to Shan's house. Iron bought Emperador Brandy for us to drink (as Shan told her to do so). Duh, I'm not a drunkard. All of them drank, but not me. For one thing, my mum's going to fetch me, I didn't want to smell or act drunk in front of her. Another is, hello, I'm weight-conscious. I don't want to gain a single pound.

Jane is just so...sigh. I'm crushing her everytime I see her. I hate you Jane!! Damn it.

I got home at 8 PM. I had fun. I was tired. I was still full from the Tapsilog I ate. And, for once, I forgot about the humiliation from Kapor.

***

Friday, February 9, 2006

At home. No classes. Tired.

God, I realized that I HATE hurting those who haven't inflicted pain on me. She shouldn't have read that text message. It was too painful. I hope she'd fathom what she read.

Anyway, it's no one's fault.

***

HEYA! I'LL BE JOINING THE READER'S DIGEST CONTEST. WISH ME ALL THE BEST!!(:

***

I HATE THE DAMN DAMN STUPID WEIGHING SCALE.

Last week, tuesday, I checked my weight. I was 118 pounds. Thursday, when I looked again, it read 102 pounds. I lost 16 pounds in two days!! Wow, it's surreal!

I, again, looked last saturday.

I'm 121 pounds.

Fucking weighing scale. Made me gain 19 pounds.

***

iLOVE Gerard Arthur Way. (:

I have a song for him, one which he himself composed. It goes like this:

+I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you
And we'll keep it running
But this timeI mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls
On desert skyU
ntil the end of everything
I'm trying
I'm trying to let you know how much you mean
As days fade
And nights grow
And we grow cold
Until the end
Until this pool of blood
Until this
I mean this+

Pool of blood.. hell, yeah.

I took that from the song "Demolition Lovers"

I have another one, from "Early Sunsets Over Monroeville"

+But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head..
And would anything matter if you're already dead?
And now should I be shocked by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger
Your eyes vacant and stained..
And in saying you loved me
Made things harder at best
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains
And there's no room in this hell
There's no room in the next
And our memories defeat us
And I'll end this direst+

Gerard's such a good composer!!

He's obsessed with death - I think I should be obsessed with death, too.

Hello, Goth. Here I come.

***

Feb.14-Vday!!

Happy monthsary to kada syete!

I LURVE YOU GUYS!

I enjoyed eating all those sweets which made me look pregnant!

***

I wanna be a managing editor.

***

AM I SUFFERING SOME KIND OF PSYCHOLOGICAL DISEASE? I THINK I'M VERY FAT.I'M 108 POUNDS. I TAKE PILLS.I DRINK A HERBAL SLIMMING TEA.WHY OH WHY???

***

Alright. Enough.

haha

2006-02-02T17:08:00.000+08:00

I have so much to write, but I don't have the time right now. Maybe I'll post it tomorrow. ((:

That's all. Haha. :P

Hugs,
Kring.

Inside-out

2006-01-28T20:13:00.000+08:00

She held the letter in pain and disbelief. Showing it to her friends, they laughed and celebrated by the mere thought of her everyday presence to be shared with them. Yes, with them -no more dates and roses and butterfly stomachs.

Written in the paper was something the world -her world, rather -crumbled upon. Simple words which opened anguish and torment never before felt by her little spirit. Words which indicated a new beginning: a new, painful, twisted beginning.

How she cried! Sleepless nights of reminiscing has succumbed her soul, preying on every last bit of her sanity. It was the only Utopia she had. There was no one to comfort her, to make her feel better. All they did was drink and be merry.

She bled, inside and out. She would cut her flesh in the most brutal manner, leaving neither regrets nor emotions. She became numb, but hurting was bliss, total bliss which crawled down her spine. It was joy.

They were alarmed. They shook her, tried to make her aware of the hell she would bring. They tried to help her, tried to make her understand that they care. Yet their efforts remained futile. The only thing which would prevent her from devastation was the letter. The letter in its new fashion, in the fact that it is a lie. It was the only thing which could save her.

+

I'll continue this some other time. Sloth paid a visit, you see.

I love my family..

2006-01-28T07:42:00.000+08:00

You have to be grateful with the fact that your family is there to support you; to love you (even though it may not show). A smile, a hug, or even a scolding simply indicates that your family is there for you, loving you and guiding you.

Don't ever think of hating them, or worse, leaving them, for they are the only ones who'll surely be beside you through thick and thin. Let's face it- friends AREN'T forever in most possible cases, unlike your family with whom you share the laugh and the tears through all the ups and downs of your life.

Love them, 'coz they surely, obviously, love you. Don't take them for granted, because they have been put through a lot because of their unconditional affection for you. Thank them, show them signs that you're always with them no matter how big a problem is. Tell them everything you need to tell, because you'll never know when they'll be gone. It may be in the next few decades, in the next few years, in the next few months, or in the next few days.

+

I love them so much. Really. No teenage dapression for me, I don't want to be a burden for them.

Just got home.

2006-01-27T17:31:00.000+08:00

God. This is going to be a veeery hectic week. Aside from making 2 articles, I'm going to have to do an extremely long, long, long chemistry assignment.

I don't want my tutor to come. I get so damn bored whenever we have lectures. But.. I think I have to be spoon-fed at the moment.

I got the role of "Meya/ Leyna" in our musical play. She's a servant of Datu Hadi who is, surprisingly, an angel sent by Buddha. (Is it Buddha? I think it's..um..)

I recieved very tragic news about one of my batch mates.. I'd pray for her.

Long day. I hope for survival.

I ache all over =(

2006-01-25T17:21:00.000+08:00

I just got home from school and I'm tired.

Dian has the hots for Gerard! Oh my Godliness. I shouldn't worry, though, knowing she likes 5 other men (Arhtur, William, Ely.. umm.. is Erik included?). I'm very loyal to my Gerard Arthur Way. :D Hehehe.

My body's aching, particularly my shoulders. It hurts a lot! Huhu. I want someone to massage it, but unfortunately, my mates are grossed out (either that or they're just over-acting). I want someone to relieve the pain! Ouchh.

I DON'T WANT TO HAVE A DEBATE. I HATE IT!! I hate being so damn nervous. Argh.

Good luck to me.

Yawn..

2006-01-24T06:17:00.000+08:00

*hallucinating.
Alright, this post is nonsense. Don't you dare read it if you want a substantial, witty, clever, etc. post. It'll dissapoint you.

It's 6:17 in the morning.

I don't understand. I find it hard to wake up when it's a week day, and now, at the time we're having a tuesday vacation, I got up at exactly 5:00 AM. What the hell is wrong with me?

I remember Manny Pacquiao. Yeah, he's a good fighter but his english kinda sucks. It's has a sort of slang, Bisaya accent to it. But anyway, I look up to him. He's a hero in my eyes.

Oh God. Why are you eating the mic? That's totally dirty, you know. Many people used that mic; it has a lot of germs. Well, I didn't expect your mouth to be THAT big.

Sorry if I said that, Gerard. I don't want you to come up to me and ask me what the fucking problem is, so I'll shut up.

People have been telling me that I look like Gerard. My service mates and my class mates... Is that a compliment? I hope so.

Gerard and I... we're destined for each other. I'M NOT CRAZY! Look at his hand...
I've got the same hand as his! Really! I mean, we both have STRAIGHT lines in our palm, and I checked every little detail of his hand - they're almost the same as mine. OMIGOD!What does this mean?! (Sing, "If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way...") We're destined for each other!! He just hasn't seen me yet.

Okay. Sorry for the typo's, I'm just too damn sleepy.

DIAN! Congratulations! Good luck with Arthur!

Happy day!!

2006-01-23T18:28:00.000+08:00

I feel like these are one of the happiest days of my life. Nothing can ruin my mood. Absolutely NOTHING.

Take a look at optimism:

1. Manny Pacquiao won!!-Something we Filipino's can be totally proud of. Not only did he beat Mr. El Terible, Erik Morales - he also showed that we, Filipino's, can be the best in the world if we put our heart and soul in everything that we do.

2. No classes tomorrow!- A vacation, finally! I'm exhausted (who isn't?).

3. No debate!- Good thing I went to the clinic to take a short nap. Our group (composed of Gieanne, Riezel, and yours truly) was supposed to be the Government in the semi-open motion "There is No Leader in This House". Good thing I had menstrual cramps.

4. Lyka's back!!- After being absent for a week, my friend's finally back from Singapore! I missed her SO much.

5. Inspired!- By Gerard. Haha. :D

There's Gerard (right) with his brother Mikey when they were kids. Aren't they adorable? :D

That's it. Remember: always look at the positive side. You'll always have a smile imprinted in your face. :)

Pinoy Action

2006-01-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

Who, among Filipinos, doesn't yearn for a better Philippines? Who doesn't want to see his country rise from its turmoil, wake up from its long slumber? Who doesn't wish to witness the birth of a beginning, to tell his grandchildren of the wonders of his land? Who doesn't want to tell praises, to be honored that the blood which runs through his veins is Filipino?

Who doesn't desire living a better life in his country?

You know our situation: the government has its inner conflicts; millions of families are starving; our grounds are polluted. Our country has a bad reputation: Japan thinks of our women as prostitutes; London takes notice of how we treat our children; foreigners look down upon us.

What about the Filipino youth outside the country? Those who were born on another territory, those who haven’t set foot on their homeland? Sadly, some of them aren’t at all pleased with the fact that they are one of us. They choose to be black then to be Filipino.*

Philippines is a beautiful country. Have you immersed yourself on our culture, on our jokes, on our food? Have you seen our sights, our marvels which came even before our forefathers were born? Have you seen our people; heard the tongue they speak? Did you take notice of our optimism? We are the sixth happiest people in the world*—it only means that, despite the problems we're facing, we manage to smile and be cheerful.

I'm proud to be Filipino. I have not once thought of living in another nation—I know that I'll only yearn for the Philippines when I'm in there. I truly understand why many of us pack our bags without looking back: we seek a better life, a life where we wouldn't experience hunger, a life where we get ample salary… a life prognosticating a better future. It is something we have accepted, because deep in our hearts, we know that nothing could happen if we, the people, do not change.

We lack…something. We don't seek another's needs, but rather focus on ourselves. We don’t work, but complain. We don't reach out; instead we concentrate on our desires. We need change. We need to do something to rebuild our country and, at the process, restore our dignity. As of now, alteration of the people may be our one and only hope. We cannot wait for the youth to grow old; take action now.

Alexander Lacson has made a book entitled “12 Little Things Every Filipino Can Do To Help Our Country”. Here are those “little things” which would affect our nation:

Follow traffic rules; follow the law
Ask for an official receipt whenever you buy or pay for anything
Don’t buy smuggled goods. Buy local. Buy Filipino.
When you talk to others, especially foreigners, speak positively about us and our country
Respect your traffic officer, policeman, and soldier
Don’t litter. Dispose your garbage properly. Segregate. Recycle. Conserve.
Support your church
Do your solemn duty during elections
Pay your employees well
Pay your taxes
Adopt a scholar or a poor child
Be a good parent. Teach your kids to follow the law and love our country.

One small act would do an uplifting to the country. Everything we do affects us as a nation. If we really want to see our land rise, we would act. We would help one another; be inspired by each and every day. We would restore our glory; we would reinstate our pride. But most importantly, we would love our country. Without love, there would be no undertaking.

Please, do what you need to do. Be proud. Take action. Help. Our country desperately needs love, it needs rejuvenation. Be the proud Filipino you really are. Inspire those you know, make them gratified of the fact that they are Pinoy. There will be a chain reaction, and before we know it, each and every one of us would do something.

Do your part. The price will be paid: our glory and dignity at its finest shape.

- Kring
*based on research.

World Vision

2006-01-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

I want to adopt a scholar. Really.

I don't know... a part of me always wants to help. I want to cry when I see a kid in the middle of the road, in the rain, begging for food. I want to give money to those who stay in the heat of the sun just to find something, ANYTHING, for their family. I want to help. I want our country to go up, to once again be proud.

I'll convince my family. I want to try out at World Vision. It's as if it's my obligation to help. It has been my dream to aid.

Maybe you'd want to help, too. Please do. The most noble thing you could do is adopt a child, but to embrace a scholar is something honorable.

Lazy.Lazy.

2006-01-02T18:42:00.000+08:00

Happy new year, everyone!!

I'll tell you something: my brother has injuries from the lucies he was holding. It had some sort of hole in it, thus it backfired. Tsk. I pity Bryan.

At that time, all I could do was laugh. I was sooo drunk. I was red and everything. Sigh.

40 Random Queries

2005-12-30T11:18:00.001+08:00

1. Do you like chinese food? that's my favorite!haha (:

2. How big is your bed? big enough to put my stuff in.

3. Is your room clean? not really.

4. Laptop or Desktop computer? laptop!

5. Favorite comedian? my brother, bryan.

6. Do you smoke? no.haha.wanna try,though.

7. Sleep with or without clothes on? with clothes!

8. Who sleeps with you every night? my huggable pillow.and gerard.just kidding.(:

9. Do long distance relationships work? nope.

10. How many times have you been pulled over by the police? zero.

11. Pancakes or French Toast? both!!

12.Do you like coffee? yeah, but not without sugar and cream.

13. How do you like your eggs?sunny side up.with catsup.yum!!(:

14. Do you believe in astrology? yes.haha.((:

15. Last person you talked to on the phone?mum.

16. Last person on your missed call list? i don't know.

17. What was the last text message you received? i don't know.haha.it's been months since i bothered to check on my cell phone.

18. Mcdonalds or Burger King? burger king.

19. Number of pillows? o2 is enough.

20. What are you hearing right now? kyle's voice..the PS2.

21. Pick a lyric, any lyric: "i'm gonna string this motherfucker on fire!(FIRE!!)"

22. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? strawberry jam.

23. Can you play pool? i can play in swimming pool.

24. Do you know how to swim? yeah.

25. Favorite ice cream? strawberry.mango.

26. Do you like maps? maps?as in, road maps, country maps..?

27. Tell me a random fact about yourself: i hate gaining weight, yet i eat a lot.

28. Ever play spin the bottle? yeah.

29. Ever attend a theme party? no.

30. What is your favorite season? hibernating season.((:

31. Favorite quote?: "so many people treat you like a kid, so you might as well act like one and throw your television out of a hotel window."

33. Last time you laughed at something stupid? dunno.

34. What time did you wake up this morning? 7 or 8 AM

35. Best thing about winter? snowflakes!!((: and snowballs.haha.(:

36. Last time a cop gave you a ticket? not yet.

37. What do you find most attractive about the opposite sex? i don't know..well,the physical qualities' the first thing i notice in a guy..but it'd be great if he has a great voice, an attitude, and has a great sense of humor.

38. Name of your first pet? it was a long time ago..o don't remember.i was just a little kid.

39. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated? depends.

40. What are you doing this weekend?killing time.

Surveys!!(I'm killing time.Sigh.)

2005-12-30T11:02:00.000+08:00

WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING THIS WEEK?-- kill time, be a pessimist, get angry, eat, sleep, be stubborn, surf the net, go to different places, celebrate Christmas..

ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE RIGHTNOW?-- yeah.haha.((:

HOW DO YOU FEEL AT THIS MOMENT?-- bored to death!!hai.wanna talk to dian or cuenx.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW?-- answering this survey.

WHAT IF YOUR EX ASKED YOU BACK?-- think Alicia Keys' "Karma". (:

ARE YOU CRAZY ENOUGH TO DO SOMETHING FOR SOMEONE YOU LOVE?-- hell yeah!

DOES THAT PERSON YOU'RE CRAZY ABOUTKNOW HOW YOU FEEL?-- yup!haha.i'm getting all stupid again.(:

IF YOU WERE TO GO BACK TO THE PAST,WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?-- nothing.

WHAT IF THE PERSON WHOM YOU LOVE HURT YOU RIGHT NOW? WOULD YOU CRY?-- obviously!i'm a cry baby.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU WERE TRAPPED IN A ROOM ALONE?- listen to VERY LOUD music.

WHAT'S THE SWEETEST THING ANYONE HAS EVER DONE FOR YOU?-- umm..i think it was when someone hugged me when i was crying.

WHAT CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER IFYOU WERE DEPRESSED?-- listen to MCR!! haha.they're my anti-depressants.very addicting.(:

EVER HAD FEELINGS FOR ANYONE?-- i'm sane, you know.

WHAT TYPE OF friend DO YOU LIKE?-- someone who's fun, approachable, not a mudslider, energetic, likes music.. someone who understands me.

HAVE YOU FOUND THAT TYPE OF PERSON?--- oyea!cuenx and dian!!hahaha (:

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO HUG YOU? OR YOU GAVE A HUG TO? HOW DID IT FEEL?--- my brother, bryan.. it was fine.

WOULD YOU STILL GIVE A CHANCE TO ANY PERSON THAT HAS HURT YOU?--depends.

WHERE DO YOU WANNA GO RIGHT NOW?-- beside Gerard.

DO YOU HATE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?-- i don't know.

DO YOU GO ONLINE EVERYDAY?-- not really.

ARE YOU FEELING HAPPY RIGHT NOW?--- not really.

Whatever Things

2005-12-30T10:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was...blah. My relatives and I went to Enchanted Kingdom, and I have realized that I lack energy. By lunch time I got wiped out.

I didn't get the chance to ride the Space Shuttle, since I had no fuckin' partner to go with me. All of my cousins were scared. Bryan, my ever masochistic brother, promised to ride it with me, but he got goosebumps when he saw the 11-storey high roller coaster. It sucks.

Anyway, we had fun. Anchors Away was a blast, it made me all tingly. The Up, Up And Away balloons sucked. It made me feel like I was going to puke. Erg.

I think I lost my zinc because of all the screaming. When it was time to eat, I wanted to go home. I felt sooo tired. I realized that I wasn't as alive as I was before. Am I, like, growing too old or something?

When my cousins and I rode the Rio Grande, we got so wet that Tita Rose got mad at us. She kept ranting about how angry Ninong Joji will be. It's okay.

We got home at about 9:30 PM. We were supposed to stay longer at EK, but all of us were tired and hungry. By the time I got to Filinvest, I slept at the nearest bed I could find. Haha.

I'm friggin' obsessed with MCR.

2005-12-28T15:59:00.000+08:00

God. I just saw MCR's Myspace!!(They're the TRUE ones.) Click here to see it!

I'm addicted. Why's that? Maybe because these guys help me unwind.. whenever I'm stressed, I always play their intense, harsh, energetic music. When a certain place plays their songs, that place becomes my comfort zone. Do you get me?

I became familiar with MCR through the MTV Canadian Hit Chart. It bagged the #1 spot. I instantly fell in love with them- their song's super GREAT.(:

I played my CD almost everyday, yet it came as a surprise when I found out that my brothers- both younger than me- liked the band. I mean, they're so young; if I were their age I'd probably think it was noise. They loved it. Unbelievable.

My parents? Dad doesn't say a word, but Mum considers their music as "noise pollution" It gives her migraine, she says. "Siguro yung buhay nila kasing-gulo ng music nila!" ;I'd just reply with a quote from Artwork:"If it's too loud, you're too old."

I think I'll continue this some other time. I'm getting all lazy again.

Dazed:Confused

2005-12-26T19:51:00.000+08:00

You want me to tell you the truth? I'll give you the truth.

I'm confused. Not because of stupidity, it's just that... I feel that life's taking it too hard on me. I hate this. I thought this stage of life- the depressing and angsty part- would be cool. I'll say this once: IT.IS.NOT.

I'm starting to get pissed off with my dad. I feel like he doesn't love me that much. He doesn't take time to notice my very necessity: his acceptance. Shit. His favoritism is so fucking obvious. Why is the world taking its toil on me? Did I do something so fucking notorious?!

I'm starting to have this image of slitting my wrists. I think I'm sane enough to not commit suicide: I just want to hurt myself and maybe even my family. I want them to know that something is wrong with me. Fuck this.

Nobody understands me. Not my family nor my friends. Not my clique. Not me. Nobody. Nobody does.

Shit.

Christmas is here!!

2005-12-25T16:55:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas, everyone!:)

Sigh.. What's the best Christmas gift you've recieved? Is it an iPod? A digicam? A new born baby? Well, let me tell you mine. (I'm in a kind of hurry, sorry for the typo's!)

Christmas eve was lovely. We had lasagna and Ceasar's Salad for Noche Buena. I have recieved two gifts- a colorful belt and 500 Pesos. (I have the urge to scream of how poor this nation is becoming.) The best gift I got? A phone call.

If you're thinking romantic, then you're sorely mistaken. Haha. (: I called my (maternal) relatives who are in Cagayan de Oro, greeting them all a Merry Christmas. I talked to almost all of my cousins and had SO much fun. I particularly liked the conversation with my two kalog cousins, Kuya Kevin and Kuya Kaloi. I talked to them for, like, ages that my father got quite irritated with me. There.

Today is... fine. We went to our Alzheimer-stricken Tiya Peting and stayed there for a while. Every two minutes she'd say "Today we're going to have a program! Everyone will sing!!" God. I pity her.

Hmm.. that's about it. Again, what's the best gift you have recieved?

It would be lovely to hear from you. Season's greetings.(:

Eve of Christmas

2005-12-24T10:34:00.000+08:00

Why?Well, my family isn't spending Xmas in its old, traditional way.

Picture this: Your house smells of paint, you have no Christmas tree NOR Christmas lights, and you have ABSOLUTELY NO GIFT.

How are you going to enjoy the "falalalala" days, then?

Sigh.I wish I were in Cagayan de Oro with my relatives. I'm sure they're having loads of fun there.

But, hey, look at the positive side: My family's complete. We're still going to have our annual Noche Buena. Our home will look brand new. And, well, having no presents makes me reflect that Christmas is, after all, about Jesus. (Drama, drama!)

You're so optimistic, Krizelle. (Haha.) That's my girl.

Hello, Life.

2005-12-23T16:48:00.000+08:00

I’m angst-ridden. Seriously.

I know I’m not alone- most of us tend to dwell on the negative side of life. I guess I’m one of those who see this existence as, well… bullshit.

No adventure.

No passion.

No inspiration.

I am SO missing the fun part of life.

I remember being optimistic. I was happy (obviously). Whenever there was problem, I would laugh it off. I accepted everyone; I was friendly. I had stimulus and l was sunny. Then something happened- something which made a big impact on my life. It made me depressed and angry. And, in a flash, the Me I was before died.

So who’s the new Me?

Well…

She’s antagonistic. What better way to describe her? I better not give you her character, you’ll just hate her.

How about you? Yes, YOU. Are you just like me? Or are you happy with your verve?

I’ll be waiting.

this is my first.

2005-12-08T12:51:00.000+08:00

Sigh. This is my nth blog. Will I keep posting in this site until I'm, like, college?

Lalala. I don't know.